Where A is the clowns have not only pitched their tent in my soul, they've made me the stooge in their drama, and B is the pristine lawn of my soul, which I can enjoy from the vantage point of a deck chair in the sunshine, a glass of champers in hand, and from where I can see the clowns in the distance, laugh at their antics and find them lovable in their own way. Getting from A to B is not going to be plain sailing. On any journey where your course is liable to be influenced by outside Continue Reading
Don’t let in the clowns
Some days I think I should never have gone on Facebook. Today was one such day. A couple of things happened that really agitated me, and now I'm observing my emotions and trying to analyse why it affected me so deeply. The first was a post calling for all people over 65 to be denied the right to vote, on the basis that 'it's not their future that's being voted on', as if everyone is destined to die by the age of 70. That rattled my cage. The thought that there's a cut off age where you cease to Continue Reading
Defining myself
All my life I have been defined by others to my detriment, being seen as 'just a girl', 'not worth educating' and 'not worth anything because I didn't have an education'. I worked so hard to get the education I was denied as a child, only to be lied about and slandered, with my own mother and other people being told I had bought a fake Masters degree online by the 'Mr Magnanimous' of an earlier blog post, so that they would treat me with contempt instead of pride. Over the years I've been told Continue Reading
Divide and rule
A few months ago, in a fit of curiosity I googled a few names of people who had been a big part of my life in the past. I came across one pastor talking about the current church he was involved with, discussing a small number of young men in his church - deeming them to be 'good men', while sagely nodding and stroking his chin. Using the defining of people as a manipulation tactic was rampant among church leadership, producing anxiety and competition among those not deemed worthy of being Continue Reading