It feels like every time I make progress with my health a new illness suddenly pops up, like a game of Whack-A-Mole on a grand scale. Just as I got back to the gym after several months of illness, I woke up with vertigo and as with every new symptom recently my mind rushed to the possibility of cancer. I have been told my blood tests show I have cancer, but that they haven't found its location, so that is now my mind's diagnosis for every new symptom that arises until proved otherwise. This, in Continue Reading
Dizziness and pets
I'm so dizzy my head is spinning, like a whirlpool, it never ends - Tommy Roe The morning after my 61st birthday I woke up feeling like I'd had a good night's sleep and turned my head to the side and as I did so the room seemed to slide into place a second later. 'That's weird' I thought and went to sit up. Then I realised there was something very, very wrong. The room spun about me at a rapid pace, like I was on some dizzy-making, vomit inducing, fairground ride. Just for the record, I Continue Reading
On being chucked out of church
My non-Christian friends thought it hilarious that I of all people had been thrown out of the church and denounced as being responsible for destroying the church and its subsequent closure. They gathered round giggling with delight, and waited for juicy details in response to 'oh my god, what the hell did you do?'. What I'd done was to try and support the pastor when he was going through a bleak time and wanting to quit. I felt the church's attachment to a large and abusive organisation was the Continue Reading
Validating belief systems
I've been Listening to Dr. Joe Dispenza recently, and his description of what happens to people in his meetings sounds precisely like what I saw happen to others, and experienced myself, in charismatic churches. His explanation, however, is entirely different from the ones given in churches. I've also seen footage of similar events in some Muslim sects - like the shaking, bending backwards, and being knocked to the ground by an invisible force. The more I'm seeing, the more I think that Continue Reading